Reflecting

I don’t tend to celebrate the New Year. I usually head out with my husband to watch some fireworks at the top of our road and will have a walk through the city centre with him afterwards taking in all of the Christmas lights but that tends to be it. I last went out to celebrate the New Year in 1999 for the Millenium.

Having said that, New Year does prompt me to reflect on the year. From a country perspective 2016 hasn’t been the best year. The world has seen continued conflict, hate and just downright nastiness. Thousands of people have lost their lives through no fault of their own, just being in the wrong place at the wrong time in their own country. I’ve seen some political decisions that are wrong at best and divisive and prejudiced at worst. I still live in a country where children live in poverty, homeless people are still on the streets and people are still struggling. And I live in the ‘first world’. My heart aches for the ‘third world’.

However, the biggest thing I admire in humanity is the ability, no matter how bad things get, to just get back up and continue to have hope. As Chumbawamba said “I get knocked down, I get back up again” and yes Chumba, humanity does just that.

For every racist, hateful story in the media, there are more people who put themselves on the line for other people. We just don’t get to read about it. From a personal perspective, and aside from the rage-filled moments I have experienced during political events (Brexit/Trump anyone?), this year has been okay. I am in a job I love with colleagues who I like spending time with. I have a husband who I adore and I think he thinks I’m pretty okay too. I have friends who I know would back me up in any situation, whilst gently chastising me behind the scenes. No one has died this year in my immediate family and for that I am truly thankful.

Life isn’t perfect. I have days where I worry about even thinking about starting a family because of the world I would bring a child into. I have days where I cry and feel like I am helpless and the world is just too cruel. I’m human after all. Yet I have to pick myself back up because there will come a day if I don’t that I just won’t want to be here. And I do. I really do. Even with all the faults in the world, there are many more people ready with sticking plasters. I just need to surround myself with those people more.

Have a good New Year’s Eve. Have a better 2017. Live your life, be free xx

One thought on “Reflecting

  1. This is my favourite yet. I could not agree with you more. Everything you’ve said resonates, not least the Belinda quote :-) Here’s to a very happy and please God more peaceful new year xx

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